Posts tagged photography.
Now this is a strawberry, and chocolate fudge filled crepe with icecream on top. Now if you don’t know what a crepe is then I highly suggest you look it up and try and find a place near you! OMG <3
It all happened there….I was propped up on that one rock by the water. With no notebook, and no pen. It was my birthday…my 16th actually. I won’t go into to much detail about it, but it was stupid. It was a really stupid day if you ask me. My 16th birthday landed on May 15th, 2012, I forgot what day of the week it was. Funny because I live in America, New York City actually, and aren’t 16th birthdays supposed to be a big deal here? You know the dresses, cakes, people, the party? Eh, I didn’t have that…..and come to think of it neither did my friends we didn’t know it at the time but we didn’t need that. You see the # 16 for us was just another age we had to pass to get closer to freedom, and all the risks we were dying to take. We’d finally be able to breathe, and maybe cross a few things off our bucket list. But hey! I’ve already began talking to much about this, let’s go back to today. I was sitting by the water and it occurred to me. I’ve overcame every challenged I’ve faced. I’m still alive, and I’m well. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not at all cured. I’m still fucked in the brain. Depression, anxiety, the constant need to be distracted. There’s so much, and I know that shit isn’t gonna go away. So I’m not going to try, and make it disappear. However I am
going to move it aside, maybe even put it in storage. You see recently my life
has been pretty good. You see ever since 2013 started I’ve been doing things.
From getting tipsy, to some great sex every other weekend, to just spending
nights in his car. So far this year I haven’t wasted anytime, I’ve acted on
impulse. I got that risky side of myself back. Conservative? Out the window. I’m
so tired of pretending to be a saint when I know I’m a sinner. Let’s be real, I
mean my name is City Grave…..until next time
Let’s jump into this black hole, and crawl to our destiny.